Wednesday, February 28, 2007

I am weak

Sometimes, I feel like such a wimp. It's embarrassing. When am I going to learn that God will make sure that I'm taken care of?

I worry. I complain. And more importantly, I don't fully appreciate all of the goodness that God has shown me and my family. Shame on me.

I pray. I cry. And then, I worry some more.

God must be so disappointed. He gives me the tools, which I use on a daily basis, but there are those times. Those times when something goes wrong, or when things don't go my way, I'm wishy-washy.

I pray some more and expect God to miraculous make me feel better. Where's my faith? I know He will take care of me and my family yet...wild thoughts take over, and I am weak. Weak when I could be strong. Why can't I quiet my mind?

Sure, my faith is strong when things go well (my way), but what about in the face of adversity?

Growth. Growing in my faith. That's what I want, but when I want strength the most, sometimes...sometimes, I falter.

My soul whimpers and whithers, and I forget that my personal Lord & Savior is right there with me. When I come to my senses, I lower my head and look down at my feet.

How do I get past insecurities and weakness? By going to the Lord, of course! Our God is a forgiving and loving God! It's never too late to call on the Lord for strength and reassurance! He will not let me down. He never has.

Growing? Yes, I'm growing. But it's a gradual process. I'm working on it, walking hand in hand with my Lord.

Saturday, February 03, 2007


Hello there, fellow bloggers (and loved ones :)~

Anyone else out there getting any snow? Michiganders (most of, anyway) are experiencing blizzard conditions, basically getting dumped on. I was just saying yesterday to my fav writing group that things around Grand Rapids don't close for snow...well, me and my big mouth--again. Of course, things around town (including ROADS and HWYS) are closing by the second due to the weather. We have over a foot of snow already with possibly another foot to go! We haven't seen these conditions in many years. YUCK! So glad that I got my chores done yesterday. WHEW!!

Who else out there is stuck in the snow??

Oh yeah, we are also at about 13 degrees with -15 deg windchill. Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....
I'm so glad that this happened on the weekend, although my dau had to get out in it today, which made me just a tad bit nervous. Surprisingly enough, I've been pretty good about not getting too nervous with her out and about in bad weather, but made me uncomfortable. Now, she's home safe & sound...DOUBLE WHEW!!

I'm just not a snow person. I don't get it. I grew up in Michigan. People have to deal with snow's a given. So why is it that the older I get, the more I hate it? Strange. Although I will say that it is nice to be in the house watching it snow, but how often can one do that? Not often. I'm able to get more writing and housework done, so that's a plus, but man, for those you have to get out in this...I feel bad for them. It's crazy out there.

I think my blog still has a on it and you'll see what I mean.

ps-My thoughts & prayers go out to those Floridians who have experienced the terrible tornados and storms!

Be safe out there!